每次完本都是一次离别,已经全身心投入故事,把角色当做至亲至友,忽然要走出来回到现实,往后再难重逢,心里真的不舍。

写完世子的时候是舍不得,这本书同样如此,阿关数次纠结,要不要继续开新地图慢慢水,就这么写到天荒地老。

但故事就得有头有尾,不然就没法圆满,开新地图或者乱写只会毁掉一切,所以这本书还是写完了,不一定是最好,但阿关确实尽了全力。

这本书阿关从22年七月开始准备,写到今天用了近两年,书里一天现实就是一天,其间因为身体原因,遭遇过很多波折,写的举步维艰,本以为写完(全书完)三个字,会轻松很多。

但我现在只有迷茫,半点开心不起来,好像失去了什么东西,坐在这里仔细回想,才发现完本这天,是我和过去两年的人生做了道别,和无数陪伴我渡过每一天的角色做了道别,而迎接阿关的是三十岁没成家的压力、现实没朋友圈子的孤单,和不知道下本书成绩如何的忐忑,根本没有什么值得高兴的地方。

如果有的选,阿关甚至想一辈子待在书里不去面对,但故事总得有个结局,东西写完就写不下去了,至于主角写完再写孩子,孩子写完再写孙子,一个角色从生写到死,不留任何幻想空间,反而没什么意义。

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阿关每本确实倾尽全力,希望本书,

江湖再见!